Spermy En Route

Friday September 12, 2014

We ordered “Spermy” today! It is unbelievable how much it costs to order a bunch of stuff that typically ends up at the bottom of a hamper. Ick.

So, basically there is a cost per vial, about 800 bucks, and a cost for storage at the California Cryobank. As any good business in Capitalist America, they offer a storage deal if you buy in bulk. We ended up getting 5 vials, which comes with one year of storage for free. It may be that we need all 5 and more. It might end up that we need just one. It’s all so exciting! It’s crazy to think that in just one month I could be pregnant. It’s scary to think that we are only at the beginning of what could turn out to be a very long process. I have friends that tried for months, spending more than $15,000, before they conceived. I know another couple that conceived the first try. And still another that endured two second-trimester miscarriages in 3 years.

In my favorite book, The Alchemist, Paolo Coelho says, “When you want something, all the Universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.” I have to believe with all my heart that this is true.

The Alchemist

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Monday October 6, 2014

Tomorrow is the “Swim Meet”! We’ve been back into the doc’s a every morning for monitoring since last Friday. They do a scan to be sure the egg(s) are developing properly and blood work to keep an eye on ovulation. Today, I got the call that we are a go! In about 2 hours from now, Jamie will need to jab me in the bum with a needle to induce ovulation. We are scheduled to check in at the office tomorrow at 9:30 AM and around 10 I’ll be in stirrups!

The journey from here could go a number of different ways, but I have to say, I have a good feeling about this. As much as I am trying to avoid getting my hopes up, I can’t help but be positive. At the end of the day, the only thing I have any control over is my attitude. I figure, by sending out as much positive energy into the universe as I have to offer, it can’t possibly be a bad thing.

Bottoms up!

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Vows 11.29.13

On November 29, 2013 I married my Soul Mate. I mean “Soul Mate” as literally as someone can possibly take it. If anyone were to express to me that they do not believe in Soul Mates, I might kindly respond with, “Well, then you haven’t had the chance of witnessing it yet.”

Our Wedding was everything we wanted it to be. It certainly wasn’t the kind of Wedding most people dream up – but to us it was absolutely perfect. Neither of us can think of a single thing that went wrong all night. Frequently during the reception, we stole small conversations with each other, pausing to take in the Beauty of our friends and loved ones all there to celebrate and support us. The room was so full of Love…I can still feel it.

We chose to write our own vows, selecting works of Music and Literature to quote. I read mine a hundred times before the ceremony, trying to prepare myself enough so I wouldn’t cry. But the words are so powerful, so true, and so meaningful…my voice quivered and cracked throughout the whole thing. I have heard some people say that their whole ceremony is a blur – not mine. I am so lucky to have every moment tucked away in my memory. I hope those emotions I had standing up there holding Jamie’s hands are as strong in 50 years as they were that day.

I am still flying sky high…

“I have chosen most of my vows from my favorite book, The Alchemist, by Paolo Coelho.  The book is about a journey to discover dreams and fulfill life’s desires. I know without a doubt that that is what we are doing here today. This is my Personal Legend. You, J, are my treasure.

“In the book Coelho says, ‘If you can concentrate only on the present, you’ll be happy – you’ll see that there are stars in the Heavens. Life will be a party for you, a grand festival, because life is the moment we’re living right now.’ I feel that way each day I am with you, and vow to do so the rest of our lives.

“There are people in the World that don’t believe in the love we share. ‘But maybe people who [feel] that way never learned the universal language. Because when you know that language, it’s easy to understand that someone in the world awaits you, whether it’s in the middle of the desert or in some great city. And when two such people encounter each other, and their eyes meet, the past and the future become unimportant. There is only that moment, and the incredible certainty that everything under the sun has been written by one hand only. It is the hand that evokes love, and creates a twin soul for every person in the world. Without such love, one’s dreams would have no meaning.’

 “’Cause I understand you, we see eye to eye/ Like a double rainbow in the sky/ And wherever you go, so will I/ Cause a double rainbow is hard to find’*”

*From Katy Perry’s song “Double Rainbow” from her new album Prism

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